Sunday, May 29, 2011

I have come to the conclusion that I am completely burnt out. Having 2 geriatric dogs who are on the edge of dying and watching them every day, as well as having a father with health problems who is teetering on the edge of a crevasse -
I tend to forget that I have bipolar disorder, diabetes, pernicious anemia, and chronic migraines - and I think that I can do whatever I want to do and that there`s going to be no repercussions to my health at all - but I think I am realizing that this is not true.

I can`t do whatever I want to do, take on as much as I want to do. I am not going to change the world.  It's going to look exactly the same whatever I glibly think I'm doing, so there's not much use killing myself trying to keep breed specific legislation out of Nova Scotia - I am not going to be the thing that keeps it out.  The world will continue to spin on it's axis without me, regardless.

I have had one too many people ask me the question "when are you due?" - which was yesterday (that is, ask me the question - not, when I was due). It's as hard to walk around looking like you're 8 months pregnant as it is to look at a person who looks like they're 8 months pregnant - when they're not - and it's becauseof their shitty health.

So I'm going to attempt to stop thinking so much about pit bulls, and start taking more pictures of pretty flower like these tulips I saw today on someone's stoop as I was passing by - and I've dug out the book "The Flat Belly Diet" - maybe I'll crack it open and have a look. Maybe.

But I'm definitely going to try and loosen up, and look away.


  1. Taking care of yourself first - I like it. We all need to do that every so often.

  2. Joan, you have done more than you realize. Look how you helped me.

    It's time for you to take care of you.

    You can carry the world on your shoulders.

    I wish you good health and happiness.


  3. hello my lovely! smoke some good weed. breath deep, love life, look into buttercup's eyes. be well, my friend. xo