Things have changed

It's been 3 days since Charlie and Daisy have gone and it was only tonight that I realized that they are not here. I think I've been blocking it out. They have been with me for so long and I am so used to them just being here that it's taken me 3 days to realize that they are actually not here in the house with me.

I looked at my bedroom floor tonight and saw that Charlie is in fact not there, in the spot that he's been in for the last 12 years and it just hit me. And then I flashed back to the vet clinic when I was laying on the floor next to Charlie and I had his head next to mine and his jaw in my hand and he breathed about 5 or 6 times and then he stopped. And I realized that he really wasn't here, and he wasn't anywhere.

People experience death millions of times every day, and each of those deaths is dealt with in a different way. One moment at a time. That's all we can do.

One way that I dealt with Charlie and Daisy's death was to go out and get a new companion for Butttercup. I have tried several times over the years to add a small dog to the crew so that she'd have a dog her size to play with - but they were always too damaged, neurologically or behaviourially to be able to play - so she always just played with Charlie and Daisy - which was good - but not the same as playing with somebody her own size.

So I have been super, super lucky - and found Bubby - who was formerly named Dougey - he was being fostered at Atlantic Small Dog Rescue

He's a 7 month old purebred bichone frise - and he's a beautiful puppy who loves to play - and Buttercup and him have already begun to play and she has already almost stopped hating him, which is fabulous.

We've been to Point Pleasant Park, and today we went to Seaview Park - and he is an awesome player.

I don't know too much about his history, but he doesn't appear to be damaged at all, which is wonderful - and he is super photogenic - which is also wonderful. He also takes great video - I got one tonight that I'll be posting that is so cute, you'll throw up. Seriously.



The video below is photos taken at Seaview today of him playing with a 3 1/2 month old lab mix named Gabriel - Bubby's first official video.

Enjoy.