It does not end. This morning when I got up there was blood all over the kitchen floor - I'd heard weird sounds all night long, I thought it was Liam being Liam and him being bad and getting into stuff - but it turns out he'd been coughing up and throwing up blood all night. I guess the lump in his belly was worse or had turned into something worse than I had thought. His surgery had been scheduled the same day that Teddy died - so I had cancelled it, planning to reschedule it in a couple of weeks.
But instead I took him in today and . oh I can't write the sentence . you will have to intuit what I did. Because I can't write it out. I'm sorry.
The picture above is Liam with his brother Noel. Noel died before I started writing this blog. He had a chronic urinary tract problem and at some point it got so bad that it made all his other organs start shutting down. When I get Liam's ashes back I think I'll add Noel's ashes to his so that they'll be together again.